To my lovely and gentle giant Bleu,
I miss you so much already! If only you could see me and doggy mama with our red, puffy eyes. Our hearts feel like they’ve been torn to shreds, and the wounds of Suka and Nanook’s passing just ripped right open again. This day is one of the hardest… and it’s going to be quite a while before we are able to heal the wounds again. Just know that doggy mama and I will be okay, so please don’t worry! I know this goodbye is temporary. I really hope that your last days were the most comfortable and that you are enjoying no longer being in the pain and prison of your worldly body. It broke my heart to see you able to walk on your own just two months ago to now not being able to do so. I hope you enjoyed your nice steak we prepared for you for your last meal. The house is going to feel soooo empty… even your brother, Onyx, is going to miss you! Thank you for touching and enriching our lives, and providing that unconditional love—being that rock whenever life got tough or unfair. I’m gonna miss all the roughhousing with you. You are also the only pup I know that can howl on demand. Could swear you were part wolf! But the thing I’m going to miss most is your reminder to us to be that gentle giant… a reminder to be that kind and appreciative presence to those around us. To be that puppy everyone wants to see when they come into the door of our home! And your eyes, with their blue color in one eye and brown in the other, along with your big ears, made me love you even more! You were the talk of the town whenever we took you places. “Oh, what a handsome boy you are!” they would say.
I’m so glad you flunked out of the prison program because you wouldn’t have come into our lives. Meeting you at the pet expo and crying whenever we passed you by, I knew you were the one for us. You just knew! When we brought you home, you and Suka got along like best pals. You were the life of the house with your shenanigans and gentle love. We even named a particular day of the week where you could sniff all you want without us saying, “Come on, Bleu”… we deemed it Sniff Fridays. You LOVED to sniff! And then surprising us on one of our wedding anniversaries as we were coming home from dinner with bloody paws. “Did you hurt yourself, Bleu?” No— you decided to take a robin and make it your meal, with bird parts everywhere in the yard. Thank you for that BTW. Oh, and that time you became a camel ’cause we had to get your back looked at and the vet hospital injected water into your upper back so you could stay hydrated… little did we know you would become Old Faithful in the car when bringing you home as your “camelback” was leaking. Lolol. Or the time we took you and Suka to hike a 14er on a whim, and you were just so dog-gone tired after that, that for two days you and Suka didn’t want to go down the hilly driveway at my sister’s cabin. We took the hike out of you! You were a great hiking and play buddy! And then you took advantage of a blown fence and had your own adventures with the coyotes! And many more memories that I can’t count.
I just wished we could have taken you up this year to see the autumn leaves turn, but at the time we started to notice your walking ability diminish. Oh, how we would have loved one more great adventure with you, but your legs said otherwise. I hope your last months with us were as comfortable as they could have been… but today we released you from the chains that were holding you down. I know the good Lord will welcome you with open arms. Say hi to Suka and Nanook for us. Before you know it, we both will be there to see you and everyone again. Take care, my Bleu boy, my Bleuis, my Bleu Bleu. We will see you on the other side soon enough! I love you more than I can put into words. Thank you for everything!
